Volume 64: Emily Macarthur [Mrs. James Macarthur] correspondence and other papers, 1838-1879: No. 369
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from thy sight, though I have rebelled against thee. Take not thy Holy Spirit from me. Thou desirest not sacrifice, else would I give it thee, - thou delightest not in burnt offering, - thy sacrifices are a broken spirit, - a broken & a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
Grant me, O Lord, that that truly contrite heart which thou desirest. It is to thy grace & good Spirit alone that I must look for this gift; for thou knowest that my heart is full of all vanity, - & that my affections are dead, without they quickening Spirit, to all that is good. But blessed be thy name that thou wilt not withhold thy Spirit from them that ask it.
O take away from me all those delusions which have hitherto misled me. Grant me constant & deep impression of thy presence, in which i am continually placed; & may I have such a sense of the sanctity of thy laws, that, in all circumstances, I may fear to provoke thy indignation.
And lead me not, O Lord, that the experience I have had of my own sinfulness may make me more attentive to my conduct in all future time. May I live in an habitual dependence upon thy grace, & consider it my chief ambition in all things to do thy holy will.
For Christ's sake O Lord, blot out my transgressions - let them not arise in judgement against me; but